Life

Im sitting in my room, alone, facebooking,

doing nothing at the moment,

thinking all the stuffs that can fill in my mind,

and wash over those nasty memories,

need to find myself back (I hv lost since a couple of months ago)

I have gone through a really depress 2 months period (hardest time),

the problems I got as big as I cant bare it, cant breathe,

not even get a grasp from it

should avoid all this from happening again,

I cant control myself of repeating my mistakes/ stubborn thinking,

today, I have to mark all this to a full stop!

for the past few months, I gone through happiness and sadness,

stress, relief, excited and others mixed feelings,

All this has made me more mature than I supposed be,

it is a important lesson, a real one

I hv learnt from my mistake, from all the faults I made,

sometimes people tends to make mistake by following desire,

A mistake that I might regret forever,

Im glad Im still conscious of what Im doing now,

Im happy that I got my own self discipline,

rationality in my mindset before everything gets late

everything has sorted at the moment,

and I got a part time job, anyway Im going back to malaysia,

to clear all this mess out, I cant stay here anymore, it tortured me,

out of sight, out of mind :P

sorry friends, if i disappointed u all

for rap part lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dEjB1zebCko

this song express my feelings very well, every words meant it

I like the phrase: its easy to be puff, its harder to be SEAN

sorry guys, I didnt tell what exactly happening,

and Im alright right now, dont worry

c u guys in malaysia about end of july :)

end of year 2

I hv done my year 2 ytd, feel kinda release atm, at the same time, felt emptiness,

the second year past really quick, seriously! fast!

next year third year, the work load will be double and the time will be halve of this year

one of my friend, she cant stand to study archi anymore,

she has decided to leave Liverpool, which I felt kinda sad for her, but at the same time should be feel happy for her, because she cant really push herself to do something that she doesn't like

anyway, forget about my friend,

I have made a severe mistake in my life ever this year, a mistake that I will remember forever,

and I have to stay strong and promise myself not to do that again anymore!

I hope I can withstand myself, god bless pls

people made mistake when they are irrational,

I hope my rational stand strong enough

a wrong decision that I might regret forever

have been seriously thought about the mistake I made,

it is just so wrong so wrong,

I cant bear it anymore

shouldnt agree to do that, it is just so wrong so wrong!

oh 22 tahun

sudah umur 22, dah tua lah,

oops, thats the only malay I could write now,

cant actually write properly in malay..LOL

anyway, I have reached age 22years-old

consider mature age,

somehow, I cried few times on my birthday,

cried for a few things,

cried for home, family after I have watched a youtube clip on facebook,

I might sound silly, but it is true,

dont know why, just cried very loud, luckily my housemates were out,

when people growing older, we kinda forget how we cry,

how simply the happiness could be

my friend told me just now, we should find happiness,

I kinda not sure about the term "find"

in which context? or relations?

anyway,

just have a wasted birthday, drank a whole bottle of whisky in 15mins?

cant believe that! shouldnt do that next time,

and I didnt have anything for lunch and dinner ytd,

feel so shit the whole night and being hangover for a whole day,

crap heachache, but the birthday dinner was enjoyable,

though Im still having slightly headache writting this,

anyway, I feel so stress right now, Final crit is coming,

my tutor aspect too much from me,

and I have to really fulfill what my tutor aspect me to do,

I believe I can! I can! I can!

sometimes, talking in stupid way is the way to express ourself,

being silly just to be ourself, to be our own,

we are what we are!

ps:/ dont think I was crying for the sake of sadness, I was crying for my own reflection :P

for my family members, for I am not being around them, for not being a good son,

for not being a good brother etc. this also gives me motivation to do well in my final,

for my parents, for my family

life is hard

I was having a shit week, from tuesday, a pin up tutorial to wednesday presentation , and next tuesday final Crit, bloody bloody tired,

I have done well on the presentation, for now, just prepare for the crit next week

good luck everyone :P

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taken 2 months ago..LOL

half bottle of this and half bottle of bailey's...

listened to this song like a month ago,

didnt feel anything at the first time I listened to it,

but today, I go through the lyrics it written,

quite meaningful somehow,

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

I felt connected to the song,

I decided to share it here :) hope u guys like it too

One more thing I discovered,

try to make use of our own advantages to compensate our disadvantages

it helps :)

update; updates

Easter holiday has started like 6days,

this holiday just fully concentrate on studio, caad and assignment

As I never show my works here, this time I will show u guys my caad module works

Basically, the module is about creating a portfolio webpage/ basic portfolio webpage+quest model

I chose the second option, which website+quest model

The quest model can be putting on website,

people who navigate on the webpage could access in my building virtually, walking around like playing games,

this is my webpage and my model in it

my website general look:

too bad, u guys cant access my webpage, due to it is only for my uni server

for this holidays, Im going to make animation on my building

oh ya, I went to stockholm for few days,

these are the photos