words are not important sometimes

4.15am, malaysia time, and Im awake, I didnt sleep ytd night, slept less than 6 hours just now, a lot of things trouble me at the moment

{when I reached penang (2am ish), the police roadblock welcomed me back on penang bridge, followed by tom yum mee beside kwang hua. next day, I was having laksa for lunch and captain america movie for rm6, dinner with family afterwards}

though it looks like full schedule, but i felt emptiness as I haven't sorted out what I supposed to do in this 7 weeks before I going back to Liverpool; when I reached KLIA, before boarding on plane back to pg, I heard a lot of Penangites accent, which made me feels home, but at the same time, I feel kinda awkward when Penang people speaks, it is kinda "culture shock" feelings when I back :p, it happened that time only..

main reason I came back here to run away from relationship problems having in liverpool, and I have to keep my mind clear of everything so that I could prepare myself for 3rd year of studies,

As I said before Im not coming back this year, but I cant stand suffering over there. Im helpless, though I could earn 5pounds per hour over there which 1 week I can earn 250pounds ish. But still, I need to come back badly, seriously find back my own (which I kinda lost myself this year)

academic wise, (this year I have learnt alot) although result I didnt get first class, but Im still satisfy as I worked hard this year :)

one more thing, this 7 weeks, I got 2 projects (1father's project, 2friend's project) I treated them as gaining experience for the future (though Im not sure whether i will be architect or not)

and updating my CVs + portfolios..

:( I hope I can do them all before going back liverpool

I felt better after I written all this down on this blog

everything is going to be fine now (I hope)

its kinda end of all the mess I made in liverpool

please dont drag me to the swirl when I back to liverpool

http://youtu.be/ocOFkb9GcHs

give me reason,but don't give me the choice,

cause i will make the same mistake again

hokkian songs marathon

share a few hokkian songs with u guys..LOL

greece

selected pic: parthenon, fira, oia, volcano island

too much photos, just select a few decent one

8days 7 night, changed 5 hotel/hostel/apartment

travelled more than 5 island

been to beaches

A summer chilling trip

it needs about 2months to be on facebook

LOL

Life

Im sitting in my room, alone, facebooking,

doing nothing at the moment,

thinking all the stuffs that can fill in my mind,

and wash over those nasty memories,

need to find myself back (I hv lost since a couple of months ago)

I have gone through a really depress 2 months period (hardest time),

the problems I got as big as I cant bare it, cant breathe,

not even get a grasp from it

should avoid all this from happening again,

I cant control myself of repeating my mistakes/ stubborn thinking,

today, I have to mark all this to a full stop!

for the past few months, I gone through happiness and sadness,

stress, relief, excited and others mixed feelings,

All this has made me more mature than I supposed be,

it is a important lesson, a real one

I hv learnt from my mistake, from all the faults I made,

sometimes people tends to make mistake by following desire,

A mistake that I might regret forever,

Im glad Im still conscious of what Im doing now,

Im happy that I got my own self discipline,

rationality in my mindset before everything gets late

everything has sorted at the moment,

and I got a part time job, anyway Im going back to malaysia,

to clear all this mess out, I cant stay here anymore, it tortured me,

out of sight, out of mind :P

sorry friends, if i disappointed u all

for rap part lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dEjB1zebCko

this song express my feelings very well, every words meant it

I like the phrase: its easy to be puff, its harder to be SEAN

sorry guys, I didnt tell what exactly happening,

and Im alright right now, dont worry

c u guys in malaysia about end of july :)

end of year 2

I hv done my year 2 ytd, feel kinda release atm, at the same time, felt emptiness,

the second year past really quick, seriously! fast!

next year third year, the work load will be double and the time will be halve of this year

one of my friend, she cant stand to study archi anymore,

she has decided to leave Liverpool, which I felt kinda sad for her, but at the same time should be feel happy for her, because she cant really push herself to do something that she doesn't like

anyway, forget about my friend,

I have made a severe mistake in my life ever this year, a mistake that I will remember forever,

and I have to stay strong and promise myself not to do that again anymore!

I hope I can withstand myself, god bless pls

people made mistake when they are irrational,

I hope my rational stand strong enough

a wrong decision that I might regret forever

have been seriously thought about the mistake I made,

it is just so wrong so wrong,

I cant bear it anymore

shouldnt agree to do that, it is just so wrong so wrong!

oh 22 tahun

sudah umur 22, dah tua lah,

oops, thats the only malay I could write now,

cant actually write properly in malay..LOL

anyway, I have reached age 22years-old

consider mature age,

somehow, I cried few times on my birthday,

cried for a few things,

cried for home, family after I have watched a youtube clip on facebook,

I might sound silly, but it is true,

dont know why, just cried very loud, luckily my housemates were out,

when people growing older, we kinda forget how we cry,

how simply the happiness could be

my friend told me just now, we should find happiness,

I kinda not sure about the term "find"

in which context? or relations?

anyway,

just have a wasted birthday, drank a whole bottle of whisky in 15mins?

cant believe that! shouldnt do that next time,

and I didnt have anything for lunch and dinner ytd,

feel so shit the whole night and being hangover for a whole day,

crap heachache, but the birthday dinner was enjoyable,

though Im still having slightly headache writting this,

anyway, I feel so stress right now, Final crit is coming,

my tutor aspect too much from me,

and I have to really fulfill what my tutor aspect me to do,

I believe I can! I can! I can!

sometimes, talking in stupid way is the way to express ourself,

being silly just to be ourself, to be our own,

we are what we are!

ps:/ dont think I was crying for the sake of sadness, I was crying for my own reflection :P

for my family members, for I am not being around them, for not being a good son,

for not being a good brother etc. this also gives me motivation to do well in my final,

for my parents, for my family

life is hard

I was having a shit week, from tuesday, a pin up tutorial to wednesday presentation , and next tuesday final Crit, bloody bloody tired,

I have done well on the presentation, for now, just prepare for the crit next week

good luck everyone :P