end of year 2

I hv done my year 2 ytd, feel kinda release atm, at the same time, felt emptiness,

the second year past really quick, seriously! fast!

next year third year, the work load will be double and the time will be halve of this year

one of my friend, she cant stand to study archi anymore,

she has decided to leave Liverpool, which I felt kinda sad for her, but at the same time should be feel happy for her, because she cant really push herself to do something that she doesn't like

anyway, forget about my friend,

I have made a severe mistake in my life ever this year, a mistake that I will remember forever,

and I have to stay strong and promise myself not to do that again anymore!

I hope I can withstand myself, god bless pls

people made mistake when they are irrational,

I hope my rational stand strong enough

a wrong decision that I might regret forever

have been seriously thought about the mistake I made,

it is just so wrong so wrong,

I cant bear it anymore

shouldnt agree to do that, it is just so wrong so wrong!

oh 22 tahun

sudah umur 22, dah tua lah,

oops, thats the only malay I could write now,

cant actually write properly in malay..LOL

anyway, I have reached age 22years-old

consider mature age,

somehow, I cried few times on my birthday,

cried for a few things,

cried for home, family after I have watched a youtube clip on facebook,

I might sound silly, but it is true,

dont know why, just cried very loud, luckily my housemates were out,

when people growing older, we kinda forget how we cry,

how simply the happiness could be

my friend told me just now, we should find happiness,

I kinda not sure about the term "find"

in which context? or relations?

anyway,

just have a wasted birthday, drank a whole bottle of whisky in 15mins?

cant believe that! shouldnt do that next time,

and I didnt have anything for lunch and dinner ytd,

feel so shit the whole night and being hangover for a whole day,

crap heachache, but the birthday dinner was enjoyable,

though Im still having slightly headache writting this,

anyway, I feel so stress right now, Final crit is coming,

my tutor aspect too much from me,

and I have to really fulfill what my tutor aspect me to do,

I believe I can! I can! I can!

sometimes, talking in stupid way is the way to express ourself,

being silly just to be ourself, to be our own,

we are what we are!

ps:/ dont think I was crying for the sake of sadness, I was crying for my own reflection :P

for my family members, for I am not being around them, for not being a good son,

for not being a good brother etc. this also gives me motivation to do well in my final,

for my parents, for my family

life is hard

I was having a shit week, from tuesday, a pin up tutorial to wednesday presentation , and next tuesday final Crit, bloody bloody tired,

I have done well on the presentation, for now, just prepare for the crit next week

good luck everyone :P